Ships Ahoy?

I've been thinking lately about ships. For those of you who know me you know I've always had a love-hate relationship with the high seas. Love the lifestyle, hate the passengers (most of them anyway). But I've been landlocked now for 7 months & I have to admit, though a year ago I didn't think it possible, I really miss it.

I didn't leave ships because I hated it. I left because I had a lot of personal burdens, things I needed to face, things I needed time to deal with. And as you know personal time is the one thing you don't have on a ship. I was so unhappy my last year on ships. But it really wasn't the job or the lifestyle that was making me miserable (though I may have blamed them at the time), it was the mess I had spinning around in my head. But now that I've made a little peace, with myself, the thought of going back just doesn't seem that crazy. It almost seems right. I'm not saying I will go back, I'm just saying I'm weighing my options. And its nice to have options. So if I do decide to go back don't think I've gone insane or that I must be desperate to get away. If I do go back it'll be because I want to.

For right now though, I've resigned myself to surviving a Canadian winter (-38 degrees Celsius..you've got to be kidding me). Why does anyone live here? I know its very pretty but pretty doesn't keep the icicles off my ass.

Icicles aside, Christmas is fast approaching. And I'm looking forward to celebrating here at home. With snowmen & ginger bread. With family & friends( even if they are not as close as I'd like them to be, it bets being countries apart).

The decision as to what I'll do when I leave Banff, if I leave Banff, can wait for now. Right now all I want to do is learn to snowboard, go ice skating & sing some carols (in the shower of course, I'm not that cruel).